Dear Dante,

I know there are no reasonable apologies left to make, but u are my ultimate predilect audience. Do try to make sense and be lucid at the same coherency level, although I am aware of my somewhat awkward neurological pathways for that is I reason and write to u in a dissolved state or glaring at me from another dimension, not sure but I somehow suspect u sighing in annoyance each time I project my scribblings at u.

For instance< picture this or better said visualise a garden scenery in summer, the temperature is 29 degrees celsius and the air makes u feel warm. Now think about the feeling u have when bathing in water of equal degrees…that gives a whole other sensation to our being.

The same difference of feeling we have when touched by our beloved one or loving the person in question. Right, right u may think so why is it so hard for humankind to understand the power of connecting matter equals magic.

In this day and age, we have paintings made out of pixels, which we share through the air. Pretty amazing right_yeah u could say so, still, humankind is wavering and overall hesitant to believe in magic. They share these images of divers caressing sharks and apes in cages using telekinesis to obtain their banana. Still zilz, zero nothing, nil

The unaccountable or uncomprehensible will always count with negative reasoning based on current values of patriarchy, yet the positive overall acceptance eludes. Reckon I have touched the basis and need of all believe and value of menkind< to hard to bare the life without a reason or reasoning, right dear Dante_

That is my humble guess how u ended up marrying another woman than Beatrice…your truly and epic love. Your hell u described and lived through with the values of your religion, is the same one that gives and keeps giving the reason for our existence. Any self-respecting being should have an explanation for our mere passing through this wonder called existence.

This existence where recompensating is the order of the day instead of coherency in preferences. Yet preferences are based on values, which are a mix of emotion and reason. Then again we all chase the gold at the end of the rainbow, yet still did we not figure out the sigils and stealth of the leprechaun. He goes disguised and performs in response to our buried weaknesses.

So the generally accepted answer is, u have to believe in the religion, regent, philosophy, physician, higher power or food pattern, government or conglomerate operating in your vicinity or flag. Still didn’t dawn on populis the fact that no matter the conviction, chaos and injustice is present and prime like it was since the day of dawn. As is love in all its forms and sizes.

Love has been popularised by the Royal French court a few centuries ago in terms of matrimony. Where love was but for the common men and money was no dealbreaker, the ladies of the court and commerce started to get their hopes and hoops up for love instead of lust and leisure. Writing and refusing brokered marriages by their father…

So in this century in my and your part of the world people marry in the name of love. That the chemistry of love wears of finally hits hard and where they have learned in some cases to conduct oneself among the basics of ethics, love, in general, is not generally present. The empathy, respect and generosity are not in the package of male values.

There is the bro bonding of course, but when the tough gets going it is any man for themself. Individualism is counteracted by basic values as shoe brands, university or skin colour, oh and not to forget if u are born at the right side of the equator. Unanimity is a stranger in the world at present, small groups lead by some fast fiddler with his agenda that has not to do but himself…

If only all children of earth would see that we carry the code within to life as made for, which is the opposite of yielding to the imposed, combined with the technology currently at our disposal. Some day dear Dante, there will be the first ones to try and I hope to bear witness…from one end of the veil or the other.

May harmony find u,

Irena Phaedra